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I thought I knew what love was and then you came along and fucked it all up. You still make my knees weak when I look at you. My tummy gets butterflies when you kiss me. You make my dopamine production go into overload when you are near me. But those are just physical symptoms of my love. Emotionally I know I love you because I only want you to be happy regardless of how it affects me. Of course I’d rather have you happy with me than without me but your happiness means more to me than my own. My soul feels so calm around your soul. I long for you but at the same time need my personal space and when you let me have it I come back loving you more every time. I want you to have your own life; I don’t need to be by your side at every moment because you share your life with me. You may not understand me completely because I am a very complex woman to love but you sure fucking try. I respect you and trust you with every ounce of my heart. I have never felt I had a person. But you are my person. I feelings I have are so strong nothing I can say or do will express my love for you. I know what love is because of you. I feel selfless, free, alive, content, happy and complete with you by my side. You make me want to be a better woman than the one I was the day before.

I crave love but I am a wanderer; my heart never

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Here’s to the girls with messy hair and thirsty hearts

Here’s to the girls with messy hair and thirsty hearts – Morgan Hunt

We don’t feel apprehensive without makeup
We let our skin breathe
In fact, we would rather be naked

We know our scars and stretch marks define us
And if you throw us a cat call from your car window
Our first instinct is to give you the middle finger

We don’t bleach our hair
Or use machines to tan our skin
We rely on the sun to work its magic on our bodies

We have hobbies
We believe everything we do is an art form
We sing, paint, read and write
We let our fingers callus from our instruments, and then we admire the texture
We embrace our inner ruggedness, and make it appear feminine
We don’t hide indoors from the earthly elements
We embrace them
Letting fire warm our bodies down to our souls
We let the wind dry our hair after soaking in the rain
We jump in puddles
We sit by campfires until the smoke burns our eyes
And we enjoy the smell of our smoke stained clothes
We enjoy smoke. Some of us find it symbolic
We lay under the stars not just to admire the beauty of them
But also to recognize that we are made of them.
We drink whiskey from wine glasses and wine from the bottle
We tell dirty jokes
But we are not prejudiced
Our hearts are not made of gold
But of steel and soil because we are strong and grounded
We wear our hearts on our sleeves
We use metaphors to describe our feelings
And we are damn proud that we feel with such enthusiasm
We are intuitive, borderline psychics
Our libidos and emotions are connected
And when we fall in love, the earth shakes

We don’t allow others to protect us
But when we do, it’s an extraordinary bond
A union with its own definition
If we find one toxic, we cut them out without question

We are empowered by women alike.

I am here

What kind of mark do you want to make on the world to show you were here? Have you ever really stopped and thought about the answer to that question? If not I highly suggest doing so it just may change the way you view your life, your job and may answer questions you never before had the answers to.

At first I had a hard time with the answer to this question. I really had to stop and think about my life and everything involved. The light then clicked on, I knew I didn’t want to leave a material mark but more of an emotiona type of impression.

I started this blog to share my thoughts on life and how to improve it, how to be positive about it and how to be happy through it all. That is the mark I want to leave, my words. I want to bring some kind of happiness and ease to people. Whether is be a friend who remembers me for a lifetime and a quote of mine spread to others

Namaste 

   

When I meet someone the first thing I notice is their energy. I can tell if they are happy people, confused people, angry people and so on. I no longer look at the clothing someone is wearing nor am I concerned with the social status someone sits in. All I care about is how my soul feels when I am around them. Some of my closest friends have vibed with me from the moment we met with happiness and positive feelings vibrating through my body. My soul recognizes your soul, my soul respects your soul and loves your soul. Namaste. 

The Community

I have been gone from society for a week. I was in a place that is hard to describe to someone who has never been. This place is utopia; there is no drama, no worry and no politics. This place is based on self reliance, self expression and community support. I was secluded from the “real world” without internet, running water, stores or modern day connivances and I was happy. I was not alone either I was surround by 67,000 people who were nice and friendly people. There was no fighting, no bullying, no name calling or boosting. Just 67,000 people living and interacting compassionately and peacefully. I have been to this place twice and both times upon leaving I am filled with this feeling of sadness and disappointment. Sadness because I do not want to leave this place and disappointment that “real life” does not share or replicate the same principles. I am torn inside. What life is better, what life is real?

wanna learn something today?

Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. Sometimes you need to distance yourself to see things clearly. No matter how many mistakes you make or how slow you progress, you are still way ahead of everyone who isn’t trying. If a person wants to be a part of your life, they will make an obvious effort to do so. Making one person smile can change the world – maybe not the whole world, but their world. The only normal people you know are the ones you don’t know very well. As we grow up, we realize it becomes less important to have more friends and more important to have real ones. Giving up doesn’t always mean you’re weak, sometimes it means you are strong enough and smart enough to let go and move on. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, and wear the fancy lingerie. Don’t save it for a special occasion; today is special. Love and appreciate your parents. We are often so busy growing up; we forget they are also growing old. Many people are so poor because the only thing they have is money. It’s better to know and be disappointed than to never know and always wonder. Happiness is not determined by what’s happening around you, but rather what’s happening inside you.  Most people depend on others to gain happiness, but the truth is, it always comes from within. What you do every day matters more than what you do every once in a while. You can’t start the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading your last one. If you don’t like something, change it.

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Quote

“America is my mother, cocaine is my father; and my sister is made of codeine. My best friend is whiskey, we all have each other which is enough for me. The devil plays in me during the mornings; God comes in me during the evenings. I love seeing both of their eyes gleam, admiring me. I am part of an in crowd no one has ever seen. I make real life out of boy’s dreams and in turn they give me everything I ever need.” K.M.Cooper