2015

I saved my life last year. At the beginning of last year I felt lonely, sad and broken. I had just ended a relationship with a man with who I thought I would live the rest of my life with. Heart break is not a strong enough word to describe how I felt about the dissolve of our relationship. Hopeless and alone I started 2015 with one thing in mind, healing. My break up was so difficult because I had given so much of myself to my partner and our relationship; I lost who I was and the love for myself by compromising all my wants in order to satisfy my partners. January 1, 2015 became the day I decided I would no longer base my actions and decisions based on other people. Compromising would be limited and I would do things solo, which is something I had never done before. Damn it if I wanted to go somewhere or do something I would do it even if it was alone. Previously my wants had been placed on the back burner which made me feel irrelevant and not a priority; well that was about to change I was making myself my number one priority. Over the year I have become used to doing things alone and enjoy my alone time and solitude. Doing things alone has taught me a lot about myself and I have learned more about who I am as a person because of it. The year 2015 was a difficult year but I am a stronger and wiser person for it. Doing what you love and loving yourself are two things I was lacking in 2014, in 2015 I gained it back and now in 2016 I am going to continue to build on it. The single life agrees with me, I am the happiest I have been in the last year and I am able to do things I want and enjoy doing and feel good about it.

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